MINDNIM

10 different ideas, ten different choices, ten different plans, and not one decision in the end. freal?

never gets old.like i really don’t understand when people say that they’re so over it. haha what?! shits always poppin and you can always find something to do!

but i left my heels and light up ring at home so it sucks even more.wahhh.

yay.

so i’m not the type to get easily annoyed of anything.

but i found a few things today. and like seriously, i don’t even get some of the things people do and don’t realize.. loll

plus, i went shopping and found the perfect dress but the small was suffocating my chest and the medium was too big everywhere.

seriously, i think my pupsicle wishes to be a parrot. he’s always sitting or standing on my shoulder! like now. ahaha(:

we went to church, starbucks, the petting barn, the pumpkin patch, value village, walgreens, and chris’s to carve pumpkins. yesterday was a good day (:

watching life documentaries everynight. and i could really get used to this. (:

saturday night- wtf i’m such a nerd hahaa. i’ve noticed its been harder to go out since i’ve gotten my itty bitty. i’d rather be with my baby ♥

anyways, the first documentary i saw tonight was about a single filipino mother living in korea. her husband was ill with lymph node cancer before he passed away. her wish was to fulfill their promise to take a vacation to jeju island so she and her three kids took a plane and went. There they each wrote a letter on a balloon and sent them off to their husband/dad. so precious.

coincidentally, the second one was about a filipino/korean family too. haha i don’t know if thats a sign for me or sum’n butttt. haha jk. half filipino half korean kids are hella fuckin cute doe! anyways, this couple is in their mid 30’s40’s and they wear couple shirts and dance around together. lol they had this hugeee family reunion in the philippines and they were finally seeing each other after 30 years of being separated. hugs, kisses, tears, and mended hearts. there was one brother to brother relationship that i actually found myself relating to. it reminded me what a beautiful thing it is to forgive and start over-start a new chapter in our lives with the knowledge we’ve gained.

letting go could be the most difficult thing to do but its also in my opinion, the most freeing thing that could happen. real talk, you start to see things differently when there isn’t a barrier holding you back. with all the shit that’s been thrown at me, i could honestly still say that life gets more and more beautiful the more i get to know it. 

and because i’ve been turning into an insomniac lately( more so than i already am), i’m going to hit the sheets early tonight. i’m ready to get my focus back. yess.

i’ve been making some pretty intense eye contact with strangers.

like today, i was at a store trying to put together a halloween costume but i needed smaller size and the girl wasn’t there so i asked some random guy if he could get her since i couldn’t leave haha. we hella made eyecontact and he thought it was funny so i laughed along. UNTIL i heard his girl say, “babe. babe? babe!” lol helllll no. i should’ve known he was with a girl. 

and at work, someones ALWAYS in my face, guaranteed. but we get alotta crazies so i don’t even bother paying attention. the other day though, this guy came in and i was asking for his ID and we just made eye contact for longer than the comfortable amount and it happened about 3 times. awkward but not really. he had really nice eyes haha my coworker talks about this asian boy that she’s apparently in love withh but i’ve yet to see him. ahaha. 

i stay away from the low range clothing stores. fi: F21, i don’t even know what else. Why? Because i’m never satisfied and even if i do purchase an item or two, i’ll realize i don’t like it and return it orr they’ll just get ruined real quick because of the way their made. and this is allll just a waste of time since i’m never at the mall for more than an hour anyway ahaha.

i do however, on most occasions, leave the mall with a Norstroms or UO bag. real talk, Nordstrom never disappoints lol. and i just like urban. i know i’ll never regret anything i buy. and i only bought one thing today (: but that’s because i put a vest on hold. that vest was a bill so i didn’t feel like spending all that in one day. the next day is fine though. lol!i pretty much hear my other half saying, “confessions of a shopaholic” right now. HAHAHA. but yeah.

i’m a moneywise girl, promise. but i’m a different person when i shop haha i’ll probably just start buying you shit if you’re there and not even feel the loss lol jk but really, it doesn’t even make sense. 

ahahahaha. he just sits there while my mom and i make fun of how bearlike they are loll we drew pictures of them but she threw em away already hahaha.